26 10 2010

I feel like most people like stories in which the ‘underdog’ wins; people or teams that rise up from nothing to accomplish something incredible. Let’s face it –  there are probably about a thousand sports movies that have made millions off that very idea. One of my favorites from the bible has always been the story of Gideon. I remember my mom teaching the story at VBS one year. She used a real lamb’s fleece to talk about the “tests” Gideon asked God to perform, and she explained to us what it meant to “lap like a dog.” I couldn’t have been more than 7 or 8. It’s an incredible story that tell the greatness of our Lord, and it has become very special to me over the past several months.

Evan and I have almost been married 3 years, and we have always, always wanted to have lots of kids (By lots, I mean like, maybe 4. ha). We had not quite been married a year when we decided that we wanted to start trying to have a family. Well, as we are daily learning, our plans are not always the plans that God has for us. Although we have been able to do some wonderful things in the past 2 years – especially making the commitment to live in the Dominican – having a baby has not been one of those things. This past year we have had what felt like bad news, after bad news, after worse news, when it came to the prospect of our having a child. We have both always loved the idea of adoption. Having 2 adopted sisters, I feel like an adopted child is no less a gift from God than a biological one. Unfortunately, to adopt in the DR, you have to be 30 (which we are not); and to adopt in the states you have to (go figure) live there. More bad news.

We have been through lots of stages in this journey… sadness, anger, jealousy…. the list goes on. A few months ago Evan and I were talking over lunch and I began thinking about the story of Gideon. He started out with a great army, and God slowly cut that army down to the small number of only 300. The reason for this? So that when they succeeded in defeating the Midianites, there would be no doubt that God alone had delivered the victory. We began to think that maybe this story was incredibly applicable to our situation. We had tried various doctors and fertility treatments, but none of them were able to give that which can only come from God. Although we had continually prayed for a child, I don’t think we had ever truly given it over to God.

Judges 7:2

God said to Gideon, “You have too large an army with you. I can’t turn Midian over to them like this—they’ll take all the credit, saying, ‘I did it all myself,’ and forget about me.

Now I am 14 (and a half, but who’s counting?) weeks pregnant. Nobody can know the mind of God, but a big part of me thinks that he just wanted us to be sure that our child had come from Him, and not from our own strength or the strength of our doctors or fertility drugs. As a testament to that, in mid-August we started a new treatment for me – hormone injections (FUN) – only to find out later that I was already pregnant before we even started with the drugs. God DOES have a sense of humor. We are beyond blessed and exceedingly thankful. It makes me emotional to even write this story, because I know that God had a hand in all of this, even when we sometimes doubted His plan. He is faithful and patient, even when we, like Gideon, need signs of His presence to strengthen our faith.


the next couple of weeks.

5 10 2010

OK, so not that I have been a great blogger lately anyway, but I wanted to let everyone know that we will be out of touch for the next couple of weeks. We are going to the states tomorrow (Wednesday) for 2 weeks, so that we can go to World Mission Workshop at Harding. It also just happened to be the perfect time to be there for our niece and nephew’s birthdays and the weddings of a couple of friends. It was meant to be! It seems to me that we should be MORE accessible, not less, while we’re in the states, but it doesn’t always happen that way. Ha.

For those of you who will be in the Jackson or Chattanooga (or Searcy) area, we still have my (Rachel’s) American cell phone number if you would like to get in touch with us. Talk to you soon!